really really crappy day

:( I feel so lonely. And no one is here to talk to me...I woke up this morning with a freakin mosquitoe bite on my right cheek. Actually more like I woke up at 2:17 and realized that my hair appointment was at 3:15.

And my stupid hair looks awful. My bangs are WAY too short. So now i have to clip them until they grow longer. UGH UGH UGH. :(

And it's still rainy and wet and miserable outside. And I had soooo many horrible dreams last night. 1st someone said they didn't wanna talk to me anymore and told me to stop bothering him. (what the heck...) and then i had a dream that i was back home with my cousins and somehow my friends back home were there too and they ditched me to go boating. :( And then I had like a breathing/cough attack in my dream and i woke up realized that i was under my 3 layers of blankets and suffocating T-T

And I woke up really pissed off and ya realized I had an hour before my appointment.

And I couldn't really sleep last night so I didn't actually go to bed until around 4 in the morning. I dunno it's so stupid and now i have a semi headache. seriously. WTF. And *sigh* anyways. I'm letting everything go. Ya. I have to. No more of this nonsense...

Dunno why i am still up

I am currently listening to One for Me by SHINee. <3 This song always puts a smile to my face and makes me so happy. It's like 4 in the morning and I have no idea why I am still not sleeping. I really should get up early tomorrow and be productive...*sigh*

So I am home now!!! On Spring Break of course. It's pure bliss for sure. I don't think I've eaten as much as I have in the past 4 days than I have eaten at school the past 2 weeks...T-T

Hmm it's good to be away from school a bit to be honest. And clear my head and recharge myself for spring quarter. Reading period/finals week was a bit bizarre and not to mention very inconvenient due to my knee T-T I finally went to the doctors Friday. (Ya, for once I actually got medical attention...ugh) But the xray results are still not in. But most likely I pulled a tenant and it might take more than 2 months to fully recover. WTF!!!!!! HOW AM I SUPPOSE TO DANCE FOR RBIM!!! BOOOOOOO. Ugh I feel so retarded. Who falls while running upstairs?!? And suffer such serious injuries...beats me...

AAAAAAAAAAAH I WANT SUMMER TO BE HERE ALREADY!!!!!!!! And...ah. I don't even really know what I want anymore. I mean of course non academically wise. I am very focused academically speaking but hmm. I dunno. I feel like I'm babbling. HAHA.

But it's so confusing >.<>.<>

Super Junior Comeback

Oh my goodness!!! SUPER JUNIOR COMEBACK!!! I just watched the MV on youtube and OMG it's SOOOOOO hott and aesthetically pleasing...<3 But I felt like Donghae barely got any screen time in the video... :(

I must say that I don't like Siwon and Hangeng's hair AT ALL. It looks TOO SHORT! :/ But overall the song is quite catchy in my opinion. And they look super gorgeous dancing in black suits...kekeke.

So......I got bored and took a quiz and thought this was interesting: so basically it's "what would happen between you and a sj-m member"

有一天，你和东海在路边相撞，你要倒得时候，东海一把搂住你的腰，然后你们互相赔礼道 歉，并留下了电话号码，有一天东海向你表白，你很吃惊（因为你喜欢的是韩庚），你把东海当哥哥看，但是经过这几天的时间，你对东海产生了好感，就答应了 他....你羡慕你哦~~：45.00%

韩庚：（韩庚是你大学时认识的哥哥），有一天你和他相遇了，你们天天玩，一次，他带你去公园里，你说想去学滑冰，让韩庚教你，韩庚同意了，你划着划着脚一 滑，差点倒了，韩庚接住了你，你们两个同时倒在地上，嘴唇碰嘴唇，脸碰脸，你们都很害羞，立马起来了，你们又在长椅上坐了一会，你们谁都不说话，韩庚被你 害羞时候的样子给迷住了，他说：“我喜欢你，和我交往吧！”你还没有反应过来就被庚给吻着了，从此你们就成了一对快乐的男女朋友！（讨厌了啦，韩庚是我 的！）：30.42%

WAHAHAHAHA! omg DONGHAAAAAAAAAAAAE!!! kyaaaaaaaaaaaa!!! i really like that possibility. kekeke *giggles like crazy* I wish that would really happen

Childhood Revisited and Busted Knee...

Where should I even begin about this weekend...well how about my most recent experience. The ER.

Worst place EVER. I waited there from 7 tonight until 11:30 and they told me I had to wait 6 more hours just to see a doctor. WHAT THE HELL?!? Do I look like I have that much time to waste?!? But my knee really hurts...I was actually running up the stairs at an auditorium place at UIUC and I tripped and fell right on the edge of the concrete stairs on the joint of my knee...T-T

At first I thought it wasn't too bad but I felt this sharp pain. I thought it was gonna go away in awhile but then about 3 minutes later I felt a warm liquid on my knee and it was slowly seeping through my jeans. I lifted my jeans up and realized that I was actually BLEEDING...and bleeding profusely...Then I started to kind of freak out but I cleaned my wound and it was okay. But then after a little while I had trouble bending my knee...

ugh such a horrible experience. So currently I am sitting on my bed with my right leg propped up against piggy and linda's pillow and have an ice pack on it.

Although I must say i am very touched by what all my friends did because of my knee. Horatiu even drove all the way back to campus. Laura and Lillian kept on txting me and asking if I was okay and helped me back to my room etc. And Jamie actually visited me at the ER and Jose...I felt so bad...had to stay with me at the ER for more than 4 hrs when neither of us had dinner...

Ugh stupid knee. I just hope it gets better when I wake up tomorrow and it'll magically be all good :D *pray pray*

But anyways, the main part is: I MET KAORI FINALLY! I haven't seen her for more than 4 years!!! It was really awesome. I met up with Yoo-yeon again too and it was just all so nice. We had dinner together at a korean restaurant and later went to large groups with Yoo-yeon and hung out with her small group and watched a weird sci-fi movie there. All her friends were really sweet and concerned about my knee...

Anyhow. Afterwards I slept over at Kaori's and we talked until 7 in the morning. Caught up on alot of stuff...she's so sweet. I love her dearly <3>

Japanese Junk Food...YUM YUM~

OMG. Do I need to say more? I am literally addicted to those corn things and grape err i mean "muscat" gummys. hahahahahaha. I ate like 6 gummys in a roll yesterday morning T-T

It's strange because I'm not even a junk food person! SERIOULY! i'm not!!! I rarely ate junk food at all my 19 years of living. But lately I'm noticing that I am constantly munching on something or fishing something out of the ridiculous junk food bin i have in my room. (Seriously blame it on the parents...they brought a whole suitcase of food with them when they visited me in January...)

Omg. I don't wanna be fat!!! eeeeeeeeeek! Especially how it's gonna be spring and warm again. Although that seems highly unlikely in Chicago because it was literally FREEZING outside. I felt like my ears were gonna fall off. And may I add...it's March??? *rolls eyes*

Anyhow, for some reason I'm very excited about Hum class tomorrow...@________@ I guess because I like the readings we are discussing right now :D And hopefully I'll get a better understanding of Adorno in sosc...so I can ace my next and last paper...:)

I am still quite hopeful. :) And hopefully everything will work out like somehow they always do...So I just gotta keep going, work hard, not make stupid mistakes, and hope for the best <3