Going back to Chicago

Being back home the past few days has been sooooo nice! Although it would've been nicer if I actually had less work...but eh, at least i got them all done!!! :D

Hopefully I can just go back and beast out the finals! w0000000000t!

I'm so happy spending time with mom and dad <3 and I ate SO MUCH FOOD the past three days. no joke. i always stuff myself like no other when i come home. not my fault though, this time we had so many asian picnics/gatherings so there was so much good food~ nom nom nom.

and i hung out with jessie xinzhu and helen last night until like 3. it was really awesome. :) we ended up watching NewS videos...HAHAHA oh good o'times. yamapi is of course still gorgeous. although i must say i'm too caught up with jay chou donghae and top at the moment :P

and i've also been thinking alot about this and that and i've come to a realization that it really just doesn't matter. doesn't matter at all and anymore. so hmm oh well. and as helen said, 旧的不去新的不来 so it's all good :) plus i'm really looking forward to this summer :D

aaaaaaaaaand my right eye keeps on twitching, which usually is a bad sign but hopefully not cuz i can't think of any reason why it would be besides the fact that i won't be able to see dad until july and mom until 3 weeks later. so hopefully it's no biggy! :)

<3 <3 <3
cherish everything you have. (i dunno why this randomly popped into my head)
night!

Lovin the weather~

It's actually NICE outside and 80 degrees today. Surprise surprise. I hope it stays this way...seriously.

Although, I kinda didn't do so well on my bio midterm. Damn it...T-T I swear...ugh. Anyways, something funny happened to me yesterday during art class.

In the middle of class I got a call from this unrecognizable number, so I hung up on it twice and then txted to see who it was.

Me: who is this?
Number: Papa Johns
Me: What? Who? The Pizza place?!?
Number: Ashly murder mistery box toppers (exact words)

I was so confused so I called the number after class and apparently it was papa johns the pizza place and got the wrong number.

Anyhow. I'm sleepy now. Have 9 o'clock bio lab tmr morning. woopee~ night!

productive day!

So I left the reg around 12:35 today and got all my sosc reading done for this week! :D YAY! now i gotta go find/buy that black white sheep or whatever book we are reading next week ^^;;

btw, my hair looked extra nice today and wasn't going crazy and flipping all over the place. wahaha i dunno why that made me happy~ and ooooooooomg the math midterm was so hard...i can't believe i didn't try to memorize the definition of a determinant. damn it!!! hopefully i did okay~ *prays*

And bio...haha SOOOOOO boring :/ especially towards the end when the prof was talking about ticks and deer or something. i really wanted to cry because it was that boring...but omg. so andy like shows up to class at like 3 when class started at 2:30 and then during our break at 3:20 ish he just left. So i was like oooh ok so maybe he has a meeting or something important to go to. but after class, me maggie and ana decided to go eat at bartlett and i see him sitting there at bartlett quad with his 2 friends and his friend's gf...T____________T actually haha i was like wtf because i wish i'd done the same thing LOL.

anyhow, he like turned and saw me but he turned back but then he turned around again and smiled and waved at me~~~ kekekekeke :P

BUT omg. so after work i went to the reg around 9 and right when i was walking in he was leaving and he waved at me and left. but then i suddenly realized that i was planning to go to bartmart to buy a drink but forgot and i went out too after he just saw me go in...T-T and then i didn't know which way he was going but when i walked out he was heading towards bartmart too. so i was like oh i'll just call his name out, but he didn't hear me and then i was about to call again when his friend's gf walked in from the other side and they started smoking T-T GOSH. that was so awkward. it seemed like i was following him or something. gah~ i dunno oh well. i mean seriously, as expected, things always turn out to be awkward for me and him. woohoo~ *rolls eyes* anyhow i tried to avoid eye contact after i got out my nantucket nectar juice (best ever) i didn't wanna say hi again cuz it's strange so ya...omg. seriously. soooooooooo dumb~ i should've just gotten the drink later...

Oh no...math...

Ew. Ew. Ew. I am so screwed for my next math midterm, which is Monday. I was looking over the review sheet today and pretty much the only thing I know how to do FOR SURE is finding determinants. D: NOOOOOOOOOO. This must change before the midterm comes!!! Gah~ *going frantic*

It's raining outside though :) And thundering...it's quite refreshing. I like it. I like it when I can hear the rain drops hitting the window pane when I sleep~ It is quite soothing. It makes me feel all peaceful inside which is to be honest, quite rare these days T-T. Things are always so hectic and I'm running all over the place being at this class, this meeting, next study session, review session etc. Goodness.

But BUT! I get to go home next weekend!!! I AM SO EXCITED! AAAAAAAAAND I get to see my daddy whom i haven't seen for almost half a year. YAY! I'm so happy <3>

SUPER JUNIOR~ NEW MV! It's You <3

aquarius (Jan. 21st-Feb. 18th)

This week, beware of smooth talkers, smooth criminals, smooth moves and X-Lax.

Current Music: Fetish-Fareast Movement. This beat is hott. No joke.

Hmm...interesting...I wonder how that will turn out this week. haha. Usually the horoscope I get from this site is pretty accurate.

Anywho. OMG SUJU'S NEW MV IS SOOOOOOO HOTT!!! <3>

Well, I took my bio midterm today...it was okay but i was so mad i didn't even study any of the brain section and there were like 4 questions on it...GAH. and i missed it...hopefully i did okay in the other parts...*sigh*

And btw. omg stupid wonhee wrote this on my wall:

dude. nice make-up.
it wasn't excessive at all~
where were you going?? whom were you looking pretty for??? hmmm????

GAAAAAAAAAH! NOOOOOOOOOOOO! :( Oh no, I bet Andy thinks i'm retarded...dang it! so much for being bffs with him >.<>

FOTA :) and um, God, seriously, is this necessary?!?

FOTAAAAAAAAA~
well, so at our school, there's an annual arts show which opens with a fashion show featuring designers who are students from our school. And my awesome friend Sarah happened to be one of the designers featured in the FOTA show and I modeled for her. It was SOOOO much fun!!! :D The dress I wore was really cool. The back, as can see in the back, was really awesome with a bunch of metal danglings hehe~

And walking on a run way is such an awesome feeling! All my friends were screaming my name and it was so much fun :) Good thing I didn't really mess up at the actual show today. During rehearsals this afternoon I went when it was not my turn to go and I also posed at the wrong spots...T-T So embarrassing...

And OMG...my hair was curled and then teased so it was this huge poofball and I had super scary zombie like black eye makeup...

So me and chloe went to hutch to grab some food after our photoshoot. And guess who i literally bumped into...AT THE MOST AWKWARD MOMENT AS EXPECTED...yes. Andy. T-T

I walked in and he was paying at the cash register and i was like OMG PLEASE DO NOT TURN AROUND PLEASE DO NOT LOOK AT ME. *secretly wishing* and of course he didn't do that, and turned around. OMG. i wish the earth would open up and swallow me right there. I swear I have NO IDEA WHY he always sees me at the most awkward moments.

He literally was starring at me for like 5 sec without saying anything and i was like oh shit...fml. And then i think he realized he was doing that so he was like "oh hey!" *smile smile* He has a really nice smile :) Anyways I was like "Hi..."

And he had this really amused expression on his face and he said, "Going out?" I was like OMG ARE YOU SERIOUS?!? I LOOK LIKE A FREAKIN ZOMBIE PROSTITUTE and he thinks i'm heading out?!? (btw. big crazy teased hair+bright red lipstick+crazy black eye makeup...) I was like "Uh...no no no...I'm actually modeling in the FOTA show tonight..." And as I continued talking I was walking further away from him, backwards and my voice turned smaller and smaller and I said. "You...should...come...ya...." And he was like "Ya...." *smile smile*

OH GOD. SERIOUSLY. WHY DO AWKWARD MOMENTS LIKE THIS ALWAYS HAPPEN TO ME WHEN ANDY IS AROUND LIKE WTF.

So i went to the subway line and wonhee was there, but i wasn't sure if it was him or not because he got a haircut, so i was just standing behind in the line trying to figure out if it was him or not, and while i was thinking to myself, i somehow said it outloud ," Is that wonhee?" and for some bizarre reason andy was standing right beside me and i didn't know (of course he was waiting for wonhee...) and he was like ,"Ya, it's wonhee" and i was like laskhdgldsakgh why is andy beside me omg. and then i was like "WONHEEEEEE" and wonhee turned around and said hi but then backed off and made a scared face when he looked at me. and i was like "I KNOW I LOOK WEIRD DON'T LOOK AT MEEEEE~" and covered my face. and he just laughed. omg like seriously WHY DID I HAVE TO BUMP INTO HIM?!? D: if only i went to hutch like 3 min. later...GAH!

And afterwards they were eating at hutch and me and chloe tried to get a table far away...and omg of ALL PEOPLE. who joined andy and wonhee...guess who...yongho. omg like SERIOUSLY. can this get any alskdhgsaldkh?!? This is just so weird. i can so see them 3 being like, "oh ya, xue's so strange..." and yongho all like "ya, we went to chinatown together" and wonhee, who is convinced that i'm infatuated with andy all like "dude, but i think she totally likes you now" WHICH IS NOT TRUE OKAY?!? like yes i do think andy is very very cooooooooooool. but um yes that's all. I just think he's really...i dunno okay like he's really cool. but that's it. and it's all stupid david's fault anyways. omg. i swear if he's still mia by the end of the quarter i'm gonna karate chop him. ugh like seriously what the hell~ this is so stupid. WHYYYYYYYYYYY must i always look so stupid when i'm around him?!? it's so unfair...he probably thinks i'm retarded...T-T ugh. epic fail... :(