Finals Week, Almost End of First Year

Hmm I'm having mood swings again. Must be that time of the month soon. Anyhow I'm currently feeling okay, but I was totally having a spazz attack last night because Linda said something VERY VERY MEAN AND ALARMING TO ME. *cries* But I slept it off so it's okay :/

*sigh* SOOOOO MANY THINGS TO DOOOOOOOOO! It seems like it will never end. I can definitely not imagining that I'm actually going on home next Saturday. Oh how I wish that day would come and summer would be here already...:( And just random little silly things going on that's driving me crazy. But at least I have some close friends around to keep me on track *nods* I don't know what I would do without them.

I realized that friendship is actually a very important thing. Some people may seem to be your friends at first but they are really not. It's at the most crucial times that you realize who's really there for you.

I feel that I've been suddenly exposed to so much of reality this first year of college. It's quite a shock really. Perhaps I've been too sheltered before coming here...I guess we all have to grow up someday. But I don't want to!!!

And another bad habit of mine is saying/doing things without thinking of the consequences...Ah~ How I really regret some actions...I used to have the attitude of say what you want do what you want and don't care what others think but now I'm not so sure anymore. It's so hard to live up to that motto. Quite bizarre. Sometimes I think I'm not the same person anymore. Not as crazy I guess? Although still quite the klutz and do random immature childish things. I have no clue I'm just really blabbing now.

It's interesting how at an environment like this you are often FORCED to grow up or accept things that you don't want. Hopefully this summer I can do some self reflect and figure myself out. I think I'm very confused at the moment...and yes definitely stop thinking too much and wasting my time on trivial things...